yeah, its here in my hospital

Epipony

So my whole life I kind of just took it as fact that I was homely, ugly...name the word. Then just now I remember being out at Anns Old Time Tavern with Liz who I was really tight with at the time. We were talking about how I felt towards my looks and she just said, "Thats not it" I said then what is it? She said I had an aura of don't touch me. I vehemently denied it because thats now how I felt. But maybe it was just how I was. Food for thought.

So he love bombed me

And today on the death of his mom , all i can think about is a day. A day long long ago when ex and I walked with his mom along the hudson. It was fall, and the leaves were raining down with every whisper of the wind. The fall colors were in full force and we talked, laughed and enjoyed that long walk from rockland lake to haverstraw and back. I'm angry that it was all a lie, and i'm angry that i cried today. because my life was ruined and stolen from me by a man who wasn't all he portrayed himself to be. rip barbara.

Today

Jim Croce I Got a Name (1973) DJANGO UNCHAINED

I remember hearing he died. I was in junior high. I was devastated..what a loss

tonight

Is lovely and cool out, and I can't believe its November. I can't believe Christmas is around the corner. When you're young, time seems to drag. The years seem so much longer. Its the same when your child is young. You feel like the time will never come when they don't wear diapers. When they can feed themselves or even simply hold their own bottle. I yearn for those years.

Depeche Mode - Enjoy The Silence (Live in Berlin)